Our paddles sliced through the water in unison, cutting the blue-green surface and setting the kayak on a smooth, silent glide. I gazed at the back of Shilah’s head, moving my arms in time with hers. The minutes flowed quietly by.
Shilah spotted the private beach and started to angle in towards shore. I followed. At a certain distance we both stopped paddling and let the waves carry us in. Then Shilah jumped out into the shallows and pulled the kayak up onto the sand.
“Been hot today,” she said, speaking for the first time since we’d set out.
“You’re right,” I agreed. “Glad I remembered to put on sunscreen.”
I got out of the kayak and stretched. The sand was incredibly soft and warm beneath my feet. Shilah splashed around in the water, and I watched her.
“When are we going back?” I asked.
She laughed. “Who cares? Whenever we feel like it. I hate planning. Life is better if you just go.”
“Hmm, yeah, I guess you’re right.”
It still gives me anxiety to not have a schedule. I guess it’s something I’ve yet to learn.
“Come over here,” Shilah said.
I went over to her, stepping into the briskly cold ocean. She extended her hands to me and I took them. Without warning she started to dance, pulling me along, and I followed her lead with surprise.
I guess a private beach is a pretty romantic setting for a dance. But I’ve never been good with romance. Shilah was always the more sensitive one.
We danced for a while and then fell back into the sand, tired. Shilah was beaming. I smiled at her, breathing hard, and part of me wanted to do it again.
“Haku,” she asked, “what do you dream of?”
I thought for a moment. “I don’t know.”
She lay on her back, looking up at the clouds, and nodded. “I dream of tiny little stars in the ocean that glitter and shine brighter than the sun.”
I laughed. “Why? What does that mean?”
“Whatever you think it means,” she replied. “It’s my dream, but you’re still free to interpret it however you want.”
She closed her eyes, leaving me with that.
“It’s kind of weird… but I like it,” I decided.
“When I die, I’m going to turn into one,” she said.
“A tiny star in the ocean that glitters and shines like the sun?”
“Brighter than the sun. Yeah. You should turn into one too.”
I laughed. “That’s kind of cute, actually.”
“I don’t think it’s cute. I just think it’s important. But if it’s cute to you, that’s alright.”
She opened her eyes and sat up.
“Let’s dance again,” she said.
“Okay. But the sun is starting to set. How long are we going to be out here?”
Shilah looked at me seriously.