I wonder why life is so terrible.
I also wonder why life is so beautiful.
I wonder why I sometimes feel depressed and suicidal.
I also wonder why I always end up choosing to live.
I wonder why people have to suffer without reason.
I also wonder why those who have suffered the most are often the wisest, kindest people.
I wonder how it is that humans have such a capacity for cruelty and hatred.
I also wonder how it is that humans have such an immense capacity for love.
Do you want to live? they ask.
Not right now, I say. Maybe later.
There is no later, they tell me. Just now.
Well, in that case…